我會發著呆 然後忘記妳
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you
.
接著緊緊閉上眼
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
And then tightly close my eyes
.
想著那一天 會有人代替
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti
Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place
.
讓我不再想念妳
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
So that I will not think about you anymore
.
我會發著呆 然後微微笑
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao
I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile
.
接著緊緊閉上眼
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
And then tightly close my eyes
.
又想了一遍 妳溫柔的臉
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de lian
Thinking once again, your tender face
.
在我忘記之前
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
Before I forget
.
心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線
xin li de yan lei mo hu le shi xian
The tears in my heart, have blurred my vision
.
妳已快看不見
ni yi kuai kan bu jian
You almost can’t see it anymore
,
,
Jay zhou - gui ji
.
.
yay my favourite songs
allthe way up till now .
istared to space alot.
bengong maksud e
.
.
.
got something
getme confused
lately.
.
you told me
you like her.
and i help you.
but then
sekarang
kamu sama orang lain
hm.
you sure you really like her ?
i used to admire you you know.
tapi sekarang.
hm
tiba tiba ilfil sia
.
do human always do it ?
.
dont mean what they say
and
never say what they mean?
do they ?
do you?
.
i dont express what i feel alot.
but
when i express it
i mean it.
.
dont expect me tosay iloveyou everyday
its not about the words
its about the meaning.
say something when you really feel it.
dont say it everyday doesntmean idontloveyou
iloveyou but imnot good at expressing feeling by words.
iloveyou but if i say it everyday then it will just be like another common words like howareyou? thankyou?.
.
its just like..
dont take photograph too often.
the action of taking picture slowly become out of its meaning.
dont keep reminding yourself to smile when people take your picture
smile only when youre really happpy.
the photograph has lost its meaning.
its nomore freezing the (precious) moment
its now manipulating the moment.
cause most people seen happy in picture,
and if you keep taking picture
there s nomore such thing as precious moment
since every moment become so precious
thatpreciousmoment has lost its value.
ok writeforrrfunonly.
.
and yea
its reminds me of you.!
BEBEK
you say youloveme
but then youleaveme.
you love me = you leave me ?
and you even say
that you need to leave me because you love me.
ok.
whatever!
idont get you
but
i never ask also
either too lazy
or
just simply dont care.
.ok whateverrrrr
.
.
.
.
.
iscaredmy self
by the thought that
i should be financially ready to live my own
in 6months
gosh.
can i.
how to.
can i.
how to.
how should i.
what should i.
imscared..
haehehe
but nevermind.
.
you need not worry abt tomorrow. since today got its own problem. live for today .
yay its christmas soon.
happpy. L:D
lovelove

another friday!

rowks !

abit skari today.

i kicked on something i think.

then ketabrak meja apa gt td.

terus td jari2nya kena apa gt.

keinjek gembok.

hais.

mg dpn presentasijumat lagi. tsk tsk tsk tsk.

semoga ya semoga

semua baikbaiksajaaa.

amin.

i found out it s quite funny

how people -includingme-

will easily forgive what they do so wrongly to themselves,

and will be very angry if its done by others.

it s the same mistake,

different subject.

YELLOHEYYEA>

i wonder what will happen

if what you do SUPER wrong just now,

is done by me,

will you just forgive me

as easy as  you forgive yourself?

willyoubaby?

i dont even ask you loh what happened.

i pretend as if nothing BIG has happened loh.

whatever youwant deh.

then you dont even saysorry whatever bebek!

aslong as youhappy.

iwont ask.

KELINCI!

i could have done it far more better than what you ve done

if only

you have a lil bit more faith in me.

i knew im labil

did few mistakes before.

but iknew me

just open up your EAR and listen to me more babe!

SAPI!

SAPI

KINGKONG!

BEBEK!

HUH!

oh ya

currently not in such a good mood .

i still dont understand

WHY

why should yous

and

why should yous not?

why ?

just have lots laughlately.

quitehappy.

quite good.

thanksgodforeeachsinglesecond,

for notmaking me worrytoomuch about tomorrow.

cause today got its own problem.

rite?

signingggggoff ::D

haveahappydayppls ! ::)

i feelthe urge to write something

now.

karna gw baru mengalami sesuatu yang lumayan nih ::D

jd tadi mau charger handphone kan

eh terus sala nyalain

mala nyalain setrika

setrikaan nya lg posisi menyetrika lagi.

bukan stand on a heelrest.

tsk tsk

tapi gw ga sadar la,bebek!

then gw ud siap2 aja tu mau mandi

ud di kamar mandi juga

eh tb tb aja

ifeel the urge to go out

sampe depan si jujur aja g lupa

eh di depan mau ngapain ya ?

then tiba tiba langusng aja ke model gw

yang notabene ada di sblh stterika

tsk tsk tsk

super thanks god

kalo ga gimana coba

hais

so,,

this is what people call as lucky?

it feels gooddd
ok.,

honestly

ihate the feeling of insecure

in any form.

ireally hate it.

i canttake it.

i cant.

thats why people,

please dont do so to me.

cheer for batman presentation in 12hours less

loves

yihaa

anotherfriday dude!

rawk\s

sampe ga berani ke workshop hehe takut ada apa apa.

hari ini terlewati dengan amaaan.

kecuali yaaaaaa

model patah sedikit

kaki ketimpa apa tu td gw jg ga inget

tapi sakit oi.

dan ya mau jatoh berapa kaliheuheueh

harus mulai meng-sacred-kan hari jumat nih tsk tsk.

exhausted

exhausted.

takut.

:C

but dont feel like giving up!

mustfinish whatever istart onmyinitiative setuju?

JIAYOU!

wontstop !@

iwont!

:B

.

sometimes ya.

ada begitubanyak hal yang gw nggangertisyol!

yea

kaloada kesempatannya,

you will find out me wont stop asking qz

mehave supermuch qz.

whyya you do it.

WHY!

SAPI

BEBEK

c

have a niceday louvre!

Sepuluh Anjuran

1. Bencilah dosamu, tapi jangan pernah membenci dirimu.

2. Cepatlah untuk menyesali kesalahan.

3. Apabila Tuhan memberimu terang, berjalanlah di dalam terang-Nya itu.

4. Berhentilah mengatakan hal-hal yang buruk tentang dirimu sendiri. Tuhan mencintaimu dan tidaklah benar jika kamu membenci sesuatu yang Dia cintai. Dia mempunyai rancangan-rancangan yang indah bagimu, jadi kamu melawan-Nya jika kamu berbicara secara negatif mengenai masa depanmu sendiri.

5. Janganlah takut untuk mengaku bahwa kamu telah berbuat kesalahan, tapi janganlah selalu berprasangka bahwa kamulah yang salah setiap saat ada yang tidak benar.

6. Jangan terlalu memikirkan apa yang sudah kamu lakukan baik yang benar maupun yang salah; itu sama dengan memikirkan terus diri sendiri! Pusatkanlah pikiranmu kepadaNya!

7. Jagalah dirimu sendiri secara fisik. Manfaatkanlah dengan sebaik-baiknya apa yang Tuhan telah berikan padamu demi tugasmu, tapi janganlah menjadi terobsesi dengan penampilanmu.

8. Janganlah berhenti untuk belajar tapi jangan sampai ilmu itu membuat kamu sombong. Tuhan memakai kamu bukan karena apa yang ada di dalam kepalamu melainkan karena apa yang ada di dalam hatimu.

9. Sadarilah bahwa setiap talentamu adalah anugerah, bukanlah sesuatu yang kamu ciptakan sendiri; jangan pernah merendahkan orang lain yang tidak sanggup melakukan apa yang kamu dapat lakukan.

10. Janganlah meremehkan kelemahan-kelemahan dirimu, merekalah yang membuat kamu tetap tergantung pada Tuhan.

(dikopi dari rumahrenungan.blogspot.com ,my favourite website sepanjang masa)

ILOVE THESE MUCH.

sharing with you people.

semoga berguna.

apalagi nomer 10 tuh.dahsyat man

ok,

so,

few

(stupid)accident happen lately

.

oct 17.

ifelt down.

legging robek, lutut kiri berdara, lutut kanan benjol. hais,.

yaudala.

oct 24.

i cut myfinger with penknife.

whataduck.

i felt so stupidddddd

dan sangat menyeramkan.

its my veryfirst time,

seeeee soooooo much blooooood comming out from my own finger

imscared.

bayangkan gimana rasanya

ketika

jempol u kepotong

dan

darahnya terus mengalir

dan

gw cuci tangan

dan darahnya masih terus mengalir

sesaat gw takut darah gw abis.

gw cucitangan

dalam posisi tangannya terbuka

so

airnya ngalirin jempol gw

terus mengalir ke telapak tangan,

baru ke wastafel kan,

dan semua airnya merah muda.

aint it scary.

gw terus cuci tangan berharap airnya jernih

dan begitu airnya uda agak jernih

gw angkat jempol liat,

dan yaaaa

bedarah lagi..

gw sirem lagi.

dan berdara lagi

terusbegitu

terus

terus

until abunch of people stand around me.

they looked scared.

they said ilook pale

they asked me whether i needed to go doctor ornot.

i knew i look pale.

my hand was super pale.

gw merasa putihan hehe

yea

people keep talking

keep asking me

what happened

awalnya,

semua suara terdengar begitu jelas

gw bs denger apapun yg mereka bilang

tapi perlahan lahan kesadaran gw kaya ilang

semua suara kaya mengendap

tambah lama tambah kecil suaranya

mereka terus ajak gw bicara

mulut mereka terus bergerak

tapi,

,

mereka bicara apa?

kenapa gw ga ngerti.

semua ngeliat ke gw

ajak bicara,

tapi sungguhan deh,

,

mereka bicara apa?

lampu lampu dari bersinar terang

sampe redup

.hm.

jadi,

sekeliling gw semua berbayangbayang, banyak orang, semua ngeliat ke arah gw, mulut mereka bergerak, tapi gw ga ngerti apaapa.

dan tb tb gw sadar

T

I

N

G

!!!

oh! ini toh yang namanya orang mau pingsan

gw ga blh ngelewatin kesempatan ini!!gw harus tetep sadar.hahah

begitu sering gw baca dibukunovelwebsite

gimana pengalaman mereka ketika mau pingsan

gw selalu pikir mereka bohong

atau berkhayal

haha

ternyata mereka serius.

jadi,di saat seperti ini

i made a decision,

im strong,

iwont let myself fainted.

or ended up at hospital

and cant finished mymodel.

and im happy cause i have experienced the nearly-fainted thingyhahah.

dan so yaaaaaa.

stelah mual mual dan mau muntah tapi ga muntah

gw lanjut lg daaaa buat model.

inilah kekuatan PILIHAN!

neverlookeddown at yourself!

youknew your limit!!

hm dua dua nya jumat

mungkinkah gw harus berhati hati setiap jumat ?

wahliew

please send me anextra guardian angel next friday,god

hoooooo!

so last friday,

is the last day of ours

and

nothing has happened since

ididnt know where areyou

howreyoudoing

and blabalblaba

huhuh >__

hey

i ve somany thing unsaid.

pertama

alwayshave a happy sunday.sunday is god;s day,boy
terusberdoa ya semogamasalah cepet lewat.

yea youmight have so manyyy problems.(if youdont   lietome.)

which idunno cause u nevertellme anything

cause u keepthinking i cant help much.

yea you might think you got so manyproblems,

justkeep in mind,

god know your limit.

he knows you.

he know how strong youare.

sowhatever problems you re facing now

is still in your ability.

just keep going   
the good time will come in one blink

keep your passion.

just come tohim, and hewill give you rest.

kedua.

pleaseplease

keep trying to smoke less

please

its for your own good.

pleaseplease,

cause iwont be around anymore.

ketiga.

sleepearlier.

dontskip classes.

dontskip meals.

lastone.

you

are

leaving

and start evrthng anew

without me in,

just so you know

i m always here.

just in case

you need me.

and

ilufuyoutoo.

be a good boy

hopeyour mom getwell soon.

mayyou have agreat day ahead :))

winawin.a

midddddleof oct.

1mnth + 1week left to finalwhatsoeverassesment.

imscared tohell.

im real scared.

its a lovelyday still

well,

if youreallymean it

that

yangdibutuhkan orang sukses

adalah 95%luck.

i wouldbe veryhappy

notbecause imvery lucky,

tapi

lebih ke,,,, oh ternyata gw ga sehopeles itu.

but then

i rather disagree with what yousaid

people need usaha. lots of trial. lots of fail.

they need a superstrong will

they need support

they need god

they need to believe

they need the moment

they need the chance

they need ARTofWAR-suntzu

they need not to give up too easily

they need all smalltiny particle

to achieve that success.

inmyview,  luck only play like 5-10% of successs.

anyway

feel lotsbetter after talkingto you

ohchillicrab

its still sparkling

not so bright

but you left some sprinkles twingtwing

so much different now

muchmore mature

too many things have happened

yet you stillsooo charming.

butyoure somebodyelse’s pricecharmingnow.

and im happy for it :))))))

s o many anxiety

s o scared

i just want a steady life

onceagain youre correct

we need up and downs inlife

imhaving manydowns and up lately

imean like from fewyears back.,

yea its reaaaally up to thepeak

and low to the lowest.

maybe because i used to enjoy the peak

then when i fall abit

i feel like im somewhere near the lowest

and at thispoint

ijustwant some stable steady even neutral life.

justneed to easeall theburden

yea!

“So I tell you, don‘t worry about everyday life — whether you have enough food, drink, and clothes. Doesn’t life consist of more than food and clothing? Look at the birds. They don‘t need to plant or harvest or put food in barns because your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than they are. Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Of course not. And why worry about your clothes? Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don‘t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won’t he more surely care for you? You have so little faith! So don‘t worry about having enough food or drink or clothing. Why be like the pagans who are so deeply concerned about these things? Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs, and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern. So don‘t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today” (Matthew 6:25-34).

i wish i can live Your way

not to worry about tomorrow.

not to worry what will i be tomorrow.

iwish..

ok so once again its alovely day

neverlook down at yourself, cause so many people will happily do it for you -sianjayyythelecturer

let it go -dahliatheexlecturer

may you people have a lovely day jugaaaa

loves.

eh homili kemaren lmyn tuh asik.

dia blg ttg selfesteem gt ya?? when somebody told you that you are nobody, STAND UP! talkback! if its not you re body then whose body is it ? its your body!! you are somebody! neverlook down at yourself, you are good, you are blessed, you are loved.

it helped me :D      hope it will bring something goodnews to youaswell.

let there be peace on earth, and let it begin with me .

been pray alot lately

givingthanks

wishes

and yea

ithink

igot somehow like an expressresponse.

thanksforeverysingle thing
lovesloves.

iknow itsnot november yet

imjust too excited abt nov.

well nothing really willhappen

except mymomdadandsisters will be insingapore again for 2hours, and upcoming submissssions which are killingme.  and its week 10 dudes! which means 5 more weeks to gooo to holiday. which mean 5moreweeks to go to assesment.geez.

im just too excited

because

it will be a newmonth

and i will make sure, you,

yes it s you

wont ruin my life again. i will make sure

i wont let you in again.

enough bigguy

i can make it without you

yes there s always this thing called second chance

but you have wasted it

zhen lang fei.

tsktsk bendan.

i believed someone too easily

and im too late

to realized that i shouldnt have believed you

may be something happen

and i dunno-because you nevertellme-

but i dont care

for me you re just a player

and im stupid.

keeptelling you about karma

if you understand,you shouldnthave treated me this way.

i wont hate you

i wont prepare anykind of revenge.

i wont doanything

i will just let god do his things.

mnot saying abt revenge

justhope ing

when we intouch again

you re a better boy.

i wish you good.

getting confused with two ofyou

what really happen?

cant understand you.

you are verystubbbbborn.

and another you

are like me

getting confused by your unconditional stubborness.

im in the middle of you two,

the two itreasuremuch.

the tow iwill remember always.

i wished i said something

but ididnt

i cant blame you

please guideme,..

please giveme enoughstrength to getting throuuugh all ofthis madnesssssss

loves.

hehe jd kangen vikoo~

wherever areyou now

its shouldbeyour birthday somewhere ard this mth.

happybirthday biggggirl

youlike to disturb me with

suddenly singin earlyin the morning sixoclock.

hehemisssthe oldtimes

dan yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,

tentangkamu nih

tidaktahuknp tidaktahugmn

tapi adanya kamu sih memang sangat membawa positive stream inmylife.

yea when everythings just right,

I´d be lying through my teeth if I told you That I´m ok
When July came I thought I had it all together
Until you said :I need some space
Truth be told It´s so hard to wait

With one eye on the clock And one on the phone
It´s 5:19
I´m feeling alone
So if I could talk to you I´d want you to know
I´m holding loose But ain´t letting go

We both know that I could think myself dizzy
Right now I´m spinning around
I know you said, “baby don´t worry”
But I miss you right now I just miss you right now

Baby, take all the time you need
I just want you to know
I´ll be here, waiting

mattwrtz 5 19

im holding loosebut aint letting go.

myfavouriteparttt

one eye on the clock and one on the phone.

sama ini juga.

yea when everything just right,

we are good,

the positive mainstream mengalir lancar,

im happy,

doinghws rajinly,

sleepnicely,

laugh alot.

.

the problem is that when-everything-just-right not happen that often

you come and go as you wish

sometimes you re there

sometimes you re not

sometimes i feel so close

sometimes i can even findyou

sometimes you re a total stranger.

sometimes youre verymysterious

and when things like these happen,

i just feel like

maybe i should leave

or i hope

you are leaving.

you ruin my wholeday upsidedown.

icant even sleep

icant even do hws

cant evenlaugh

all i do r

one eye on the clock,

counting howlong ve you been missing

and one on the phone,

waitingsome goodnews from you

thats why im holding loose

cause im not too sure abt you

tapi bagaimanapun juga

still aint letting go,

cause i cant.
We both know that I could think myself dizzy

everytime you re not there.

I´m spinning around

I know you said, “baby don´t worry”

But I miss you right now

i said I miss you right now

i wish

i can let you

take all the time you need

I just want you to know

I´ll be here, waiting

ihope i m patient enough to wait.

andkeep waiting.

yak early inthe morning 4oclock liao

soearly

anyway, its 6 days to go,

icant be more excited than this.

superb happpppy

its horridae dude

finally

i feel so peaceful,

yetclosing oneeye atthe fact

there s a big tsunami headinglater on

1. the 1500words essay with 5-6 books as a reference.ohholysianjay
2. reforming the mixer. workshopppieng. ppt ing
3. gerald ing the communication dvice in alias. ohman.
4. grouppresentation ohmypetani.sadly i have a very weird group.pleaseeatmeeenow.
5. and yeaaaa batman comes alive. ohmygod.ohmy. ppt. moodboard.

and not to mention uisssss funexercise. as long as he nvr give hws, iwill just take it as fun. seperti kembali ke teka. diajarin gambar sama ibu guru, tapi yang ini levelnya 10kali lipat teka.heheh. and probably another colaborationproject. with whoever.

and alllll to be asssssesed on week 15.,

now is week 8

ohno.

pleasegivemeenoughstrength

so ican get through all of theseeeeeeemadness

nicely.

amin

spread love everywhereee~

yapsi mamipapiduadede mau dateng in 19daysss

seeyou guys soooon.

ya datang cuma transit sih

geez i wish i can go along.

hmm.

semogaaaakita enggga jauh.

karna gw merasanyaman sama semua ini

semoga engga jauh ya

karna deketnyakita bikin gw semangat menjalaniharihari yang aneh

semoga ga jauh

emangiya sih banyakrintanganrintangan

tapiya semuga aja ga jauu

iwill pray along the way ,love

semoga semua berjalan lancar ya

ciki ud pulang jakartaaa kemarin,

ngga ngerti deh kapan ketemu lagi.

hehe

kemarin jg ketemu dua kali

cikisibuk sioping sih.dsr cewe.hahah

ujan sih

pr gw byk sih

ckck

i will always misssss yougirl

semuasession2 curhat2 dan gosip2 starbak2 dll

suatu hari nanti kita pasti ketemu lagi ya

hehe have a nice lifedude.

loveyoumuch

haveaniceday peeps